I love going home.
I guess i just don't feel that Santa Clara is home yet. I just have not found my niche and have been going through a pretty tough time with issues that have followed me from LA. Its been a tough adjustment and i feel 100 times more homesick then i did when i left home for undergrad. I don't know why that is. My mind just is not taking to the adjustment very easily and it wanders constantly back to LA, back to memories and to happy days. its hard for me to understand why. I am in a great city, attending a fantastic university, studying something that truly interests me, close to my sisters and brother, meeting new and interesting people. Yet i am not focused on that. My mind is constantly thinking back, to days gone past, rather then forward.
The weekend was such a good time. Spent the day on Friday cleaning out my old apartment and catching up with a few friends for dinner. Drove home on Friday night to Mo Val where the family and my dogs were waiting for me. Saturday was exactly what home is supposed to be. I relaxed a bit, while mom and dad freaked out about what they were going to do about the car. In the evening Sean and I took Megan and Becca over to one of my HS friends house where we met his new wife and caught up with some old HS buddies. I was even told that Sean is funnier then me. Needless to say that is the last time i invite him to go with me to one of my friends places.
Sunday i had to study a bit while Mom and Dad went car shopping. We had dinner with grandma and then i headed down to Hermosa Beach and met up with Jeff and his roomate at a bar called the "Poopdeck". Monday consisted of Jeff and I hanging out at the beach and then meeting up with Stephen later in the afternoon where we proceeded to go on an impromptu pub crawl. Those kids are alot of fun and definitely always know how to have a good time.
Ok there is alot more details that i should write about, but i only got 4 hours of sleep last night and im tired. Hopefully pictures will follow if i can figure out how to upload pictures from dads camera to my computer.
7 comments:
It sounds lik SUCH a good time, Bub, and I'm glad you had a great visit home.
I think LA will continue to be "home" for you for quite some time. I felt a million times more homesick when I moved to Reno than when I moved to SF for college. I struggled with the WHY's of that, too. Eventually I came to realize that it just meant that my life before Reno was GOOD. It was natural to be homesick for that. And it's natural to be homesick for the life you had, that you will never have again under those same conditions, because it was GOOD. It is an incredible part of your past that you will never forget.
I think the adjusting will come with a bit more time. And a bit more acceptance of your new life. Once you are able to release some of the LA demons that are haunting you in Nor Cal - once you REALLY let yourself enjoy this fresh start - you will begin to embrace it the way you did UCLA. Don’t rush that, though. Just let yourself work through it. Try to really welcome this change.
And know we’re all here for you, and love you more than anything.
Ditto - I love you so much!
i think the problem is you aren't focusing enough on being close to your brother-in-law... :)
Sweet D, we loved having you home and are very glad you that you enjoyed yourself. Your leaving depressed all of us, especially Kobe. Mips, however, was quite pleased with your departure.
Give yourself time, my boy. Good things will come. Just be open to it all.
When I started at SCU I had my dorm room PLASTERED...I mean WALLPAPERED with pictures of old High School friends and desperately missed being comfortable and being surrounded by familiar friends and family in familiar situations...slowly those pictures of my HS friends were replaced with pictures of my new friends...and when I moved to LA I was incredibly homesick for my SCU friends...it will always be that way...I'm not sure what your LA "demons" are, but I can guarantee you that one day you will be desperately homesick for SCU. Now go get some hot wings from "Cluck U" for me.
thanks a lot. your not going to invite me to any more of your friend's houses anymore? lol
it's not my fault i'm hilarious. haha
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